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hi world.


read this -


and then read this.


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prepare to see this on facebook one of these days - but chaque jour je t'aime davantage, aujourd'hui plus qu'hier et bien moins que demain. ♥

i am so glad the worst 40 hours of my life are over. i ran the whole gamut of emotions and now i'm in that blissful state of can't-touch-this again. how has this changed me? i still am disillusioned with the idea of love - but just the utopian concept of love, the seemingly unattainable unreachable type that every one likes to ramble on for endless blog posts about. it can all be a crock of bull, really - in the past month-and-a-half that i've been here i've seen couples that have been together for years break up just because they now live 20 minutes apart from each other instead of just next door, and girls who were so in love with their steady boyfriends being able to flirt, have a fling with and rapidly fall in love with somebody else (and proceed to break up with their previous boyfriends who committed no wrong) a mere few weeks later. a friend who found out her boyfriend of six years had been cheating on her. a friend's friend who doesn't find his simultaneous claiming that he will marry his girlfriend and sleeping with other women to be the slightest bit unusual. another friend who doesn't feel the need for committed relationships, because he says hi by having sex. more failed long-distance relationships than i can even begin to count.

but then the random spots of sunshine. a friend who used to be a womanizing jerk suddenly finding the right girl for him and becoming the most faithful creature on the planet. another friend who spent an entire night at a huge party he helped to organize off the dance floor, not because he didn't have anyone asking him to dance or because he didn't want to, but because his new girlfriend wasn't there, and he only wanted to have fun when she was next to him. and you. brighter and better than both these people combined, times a lot. (:

i might not believe in that fairytale dream of pink sparkly honey-glazed love any more, but i do believe in what we have. and i think that's the reason i found it so hard to let go this time compared to any other. it didn't feel right. it wasn't our time. an untimely demise.......i'd choose living together with you over dying together with you any day.

and hey, i think we've kinda got a pink sparkly honey-glazed love thing going of our own. (: xxx